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  Turner Publishing Company

  Nashville, Tennessee

  New York, New York

  www.turnerpublishing.com

  Hag

  Copyright © 2018 Kathleen Kaufman.

  This book or any part thereof may not be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.

  This is a work of fiction. All the characters and events portrayed in this book are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

  Cover design: Maddie Cothren

  Book design: Meg Reid

  Lyric Credit: Kate Rusby, “Planets”

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Names: Kaufman, Kathleen, author.

  Title: Hag : a novel / Kathleen Kaufman.

  Description: Nashville, Tennessee : Turner Publishing Company, [2018]|

  Summary: Spanning centuries of human history, the daughters of the lowland hag, the Cailleach, an ancient female force hidden in the rocky Scottish cliffs, must navigate a world filled with superstition, hatred, violence, pestilence, and death to find their purpose.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2018008658| ISBN 9781684421671 (pbk.) ISBN 9781684421688 (hard cover)

  Subjects: | CYAC: Mythology, Celtic--Fiction.

  Classification: LCC PZ7.1.K377 Hag 2018 | DDC [Fic]--dc23

  LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018008658

  9781684421671 (PBK)

  9781684421688 (HC)

  9781684421695 (eBook)

  Printed in the United States of America

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  To my mother, who told me all the stories and taught me from a very

  young age that magic can be found in even the most ordinary of places.

  CONTENTS

  Prolgue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgement

  “She is powerful if different.”

  —Tina Turner

  “I have recognized that the All is being dissolved, both the earthly things and the heavenly.”

  —Gospel of Mary 8:17

  THE LOST VILLAGE STILL STANDS somewhere deep in the lowland hills. The Cailleach’s curse has not waned or weakened. An invisible shield, as permeable as water, surrounds the tiny village surrounded by the rough field grass, not far from the cave where if one looks closely enough, one can still make out the mark of Ingwaz carved on the stones that block the entrance. Over the years, the village has become harder and harder to see; as memory of the Cailleach faded and the raven-haired hag turned to folklore and the folklore became a relic of an ancient time, people forgot, and in their forgetting, they lost the ability to see. Unconsciously and quite by accident, they crossed the Lethe, and their memories of an earlier time when magic was part of the ordinary was erased.

  Now the field is home to a development of flats, parking lots, cars, and paved roads. The rough grass that the daughter of Cailleach ran through in her terror and grief so very many years ago has been cultivated, and rows of manufactured flowers and shrubs fall in neat rows. Children play on a brightly painted climbing frame and laugh as they push each other on the roundabout. They have no memory of those who lived on the land so many years ago. Families sit in their gardens at twilight and hear only the thrush sing out the day.

  There is a stretch of land that has never been developed; it sits pristine and untouched, and those who live in this oblivious and forgetful world avoid it entirely. It was deemed unsuitable for structures many years ago, and no one has bothered to examine the diagnosis. A deep and unsettling feeling comes over anyone who lingers in this no-man’s-land surrounded by progress. Dogs, run away from their owners, will stop and bark at an invisible enemy on the border of the green space. The children dare each other to walk through the field at night, and every so often a story rises of a single light emanating from the center of the field: as small as a candle flame, it flickers back and forth in the night and then disappears entirely.

  BRIGHT RED RAIN BOOTS, boots that were seeing their first good Glasgow rain. Alice Grace is six years old today, and she is wearing brand-new red rain boots from the United States. They arrived via parcel post the week before, and it had been the single most exciting event of the entire dreary week. There was a note enclosed that read, “It rains buckets in the summer, getting you ready for a good Colorado downpour.” Her mother had cursed and not apologized. Another thing to pack, why not keep them till we get settled? Alice Grace didn’t care a bit about that. She had new red boots and it was raining on High Street, the water winding its way through the cobblestones, creating paths around the broken stone and rubble. She figured in Colorado, United States, the streets were all smooth pavement, the piles of brick and stone, the destruction of the war, were made into clean, straight walls, and the weather was always agreeable. The trees were green year-round, and the damp never hung in the air. She skipped in the gutter where the puddles were deepest and made the biggest splash. The hem of her pink-and-grey dress was damp with the muddy water, but she didn’t care a bit about that. Her new red rain boots were magnificent and all was well.

  She skipped along the path, her eyes on the autumn sky. It was growing dark and the sun had settled into a slow burn behind the rooftops. There was a sense of everything she would leave behind, and Alice Grace almost lost her broad grin at the thought. She knew, after these short weeks, that her life would change forever and wasn’t entirely sure that was a good idea. Mum said there were paths we follow in life, and they decided everything. Alice Grace sometimes wondered if the path here on High Street in Glasgow was the one she would be happiest on. She would grow to run the shop that Mum had run before the war. She would sell herbal tinctures and creams made from the garden that had once bloomed in the back courtyard. She would marry the butcher’s son, the boy with the chipped tooth and floppy hair who opened doors for her and gave her a chocolate on Christmas. Even at six, Alice Grace saw the path stretched out in front of her. It was a fine life; they lived over the shop in the flat that had sat empty since the Clydebank Blitz. Their children had floppy hair and Alice Grace’s honey-brown eyes. They were happy.

  Alice Grace saw other things too: even at six she knew better than to tell anyone what she saw. She saw the butcher’s boy double over with a pain in
his chest, his hair just beginning to grey. She saw her own honey-eyed children with tears in their eyes. She saw herself dressed in black, her own raven hair streaked with white. She saw the neighbors sitting in their humble den, pints and bottles of whiskey aplenty, the children well asleep or at least pretending. She saw herself running the business alone, a respected businesswoman, content, quiet, and happy. Even at six years old, Alice Grace saw a vision of herself sitting by a fire, a book in her hand and a lady’s glass of whiskey on the end table. Her honey-eyed children long ago set out upon their fortunes. She saw herself happy and alone and wondered if she should stay, if this were the best she could do in this life.

  The problem was the red rain boots. Living above the shop with the floppy-haired butcher’s boy was a choice, but there was no room for bright red rain boots. She was to leave for Colorado, United States, in two weeks’ time, and there was adventure to be found. She was sure she would see the paths unfold in time, as they formed; she always had before. The water was pooling in a broad swirl at the crook in the lane. Alice Grace skipped in the shadow of the street and sidewalk, enjoying the spray that showered her in muddy rainwater.

  Just as she reached the magnificent, broad lake of muddy water, Alice Grace felt the bottom drop out: her right foot, instead of hitting the hard pavement, kept falling, down and down, down forever. In that moment, as she felt her entire six-year-old self lurch forward and down, she saw another path, one that had lain hidden beneath the muddy water. This one carried her down, down, and she saw her mother, face covered in a black veil and the familiar pints here and there; the butcher’s boy, his face red and swollen with tears, sat in a corner. There was no Colorado, United States, in this path, not for her or anyone. This was the end of so many things, and Alice Grace understood in that frozen moment that the devil was many things, and all the things that Mum had ever told her flooded her heart. Be strong and proud, Mum had said as she brushed Alice Grace’s raven hair that was touched with fire. She felt Mum’s lips on the top of her head and smelled nutmeg and vanilla.

  She closed her eyes and, resigned to the fall through the mud that seemed never to end, she was already up to her waist, and the cold rush of the rainwater felt like knives in her skin. She felt a scream tear from her mouth, her voice moving of its own accord. Suddenly, a force she couldn’t explain gripped her red rain boot and shoved upward. She felt a pair of strong hands, but that was impossible; her foot was deep in the water and no one was there to catch her, yet still the hands tightened and shoved upward. She swore she heard a grunt of effort in her right ear, and a final heave shoved her back up through the swiftly swirling water, too dark to see a bottom, and back onto the cobblestone street. The impact knocked the wind from her chest, and she lay heaving for breath. Her entire body, now soaked with the mud that had moments before been a delight, was shaking with cold. In her right ear, a hot rush of breath, and the same voice that had grunted before whispered low words that Alice Grace knew immediately were only meant for her. “Mind the break, young one.”

  The deep voice was replaced with a pitched scream in her left ear, one that was meant not just for her but the entirety of Glasgow, it seemed. Alice Grace turned her head to see Miss Kinnear, the elderly woman who lived two doors down and gave her sweet ginger cookies when the holidays were near. Her face was contorted with something Alice Grace recognized immediately as fear. Other voices joined in as Alice Grace tried to sit up, but every bone in her body felt as though it had been shoved roughly into a sack, taken back out again, and shaken into place.

  “She fell straight through, thought she was drowned for sure!” Miss Kinnear wailed. A man that Alice Grace recognized from the Saturday vegetable market on Bell Street was dipping a fallen tree branch into the swirling muddy water.

  “Grate broke!” he yelled back, his face paler than Alice Grace remembered. “The water’s running straight down, she’d been lost in a minute down there!” All around her doors were opening and faces appearing, and hands on her back and arms pulled Alice Grace to her feet. She shook with cold and shock and was suddenly and rather frighteningly hit with an embrace that nearly knocked her off her already unsteady feet. The smell of nutmeg and vanilla gave Alice Grace leeway to dissolve into the hug as her mother frantically asked the growing crowd what had happened.

  “Damnedest thing, really.” Miss Kinnear was retelling now with the air of a storyteller who has stumbled on the tale of a lifetime. “I saw the child playing in the water and then down she went, and I thought she was drowned for sure, her head was near clear under in a blink, but then up she came, shooting back up like a fountain. Damnedest thing.”

  Alice Grace turned her head to watch the man from the Saturday market and several others laying planks of wood from someone’s courtyard over the rushing water. As the planks interrupted the flow of the mud, she could see the gaping hole in the lane, the metal grate having been ripped from its place.

  “Must’ve been the angels, it was,” Miss Kinnear was now spouting to anyone who’d stayed to listen.

  “Nonsense,” another said, a woman near her mother’s age, who had twin boys whose noses were always sticky with green snot. “The water pushed her out, like a wave on the ocean. The angels, my foot.”

  Alice Grace’s mother, the shock of the moment gone, had quite regained her senses. She pushed Alice Grace back a step and regarded her closely.

  “If I ever catch you messin’ about in the muck like this again, young lady, you better wish you’d fallen straight through to hell itself, as it would be better than what I’ll do to ya!” Her voice rang through the streets, and Alice Grace felt her face growing red. The neighbors shuffled back into their doorways, the drama of a naughty child and a high-handed threat far too ordinary for an audience. Alice Grace’s mother nodded a thank-you to the men who continued to barricade the broken grate, and they started back up the lane. The red rain boots were now filled with filthy water and not fun at all. The deep voice in Alice Grace’s ear echoed silently, a hymn. As she sat on the front steps of the shop and emptied out her boots, Alice Grace saw another path unfold in front of her, and she said a silent farewell to the butcher’s boy and the Glasgow rain.

  BACK IN THE DAYS when time ran sideways and backward and all manner of directions, there was a lowland village that had sat abandoned ever since anyone could remember. The local children would dare each other, in the way that children do, to creep right up to the edge where the knobby field grass met the dirt path. The bravest of the lot could see that the shops and cottages still stood, as though the residents were merely waiting around the corner. The paint never faded, the wood never turned to rot, flowers grew in neat paths along the walkway, and a very small boy with dishwater-dull hair had even claimed to have seen a candle burning in a window.

  Hogwash was what the women and men in the surrounding lowland hills said. Everyone knew that the cholera had taken the village, and the stink of infection still lay over it, and it was a fool’s game to get too close.

  There’s a terrible expanse between childhood and adulthood. The children would have been well-advised to stay away from the lost village, and the grown ones would be well-advised to believe in things more evil than the cholera. As it was, both groups stuck to their version of the truth and none was the wiser for it.

  ALICE IS EIGHT YEARS old today. She is no longer Alice Grace, as she’s discovered that real Americans didn’t use both their names, so in addition to doing everything possible to cover her Glasgow accent, she dropped her second name. Mum had rolled her eyes and not commented when Alice informed her in clipped American speech that she was no longer Alice Grace, just Alice. The two years since their arrival in Colorado, United States, had been somewhat uneventful. The house on Twenty-First Street, Colorado Springs, had a large front porch with a rail that ran clear around the sides. Alice liked to sit on it and dangle her legs, watching the cars drive past. There had been cars in Glasgow, of course, but not nearly so many, nor so many different sorts.
Her family did not have a car. Mum said it was a luxury they surely didn’t need. Alice thought it would be nice not to have to walk the groceries back from the market every Saturday or wheel the laundry in the squeaky-jointed cart every Sunday afternoon. The school bus picked her up on the next block; but even at that, the winter wind in Colorado, United States, wasn’t any kinder than it had been in Glasgow. But it was autumn now and not time for the winter wind. It was Alice’s favorite time of year, and not just because of her birthday. It was time for sweaters, hand-knitted by Aunt Polly. Mother didn’t knit sweaters, but she did sew little patchwork bears and tigers from squares of old clothes. She gave the lot of them to the church for the poor children, but when she caught Alice looking at one in particular, it usually made its way to her bed and joined the growing tribe of animals that resided there.

  Alice could smell her birthday cake baking. Aunt Polly had made it from scratch, as she did for everyone’s birthdays. Her brother, Arthur, had spent the morning dancing around the kitchen begging for a spoon to lick or a dab of stray icing. A year ago, Alice would’ve raised hell; it was her birthday, after all, and any spoons that needed licking should be licked by her and her alone. But she was eight today and too mature for such carrying on. Arthur was five and still a baby. He could fuss over the cake icing as much as he liked. This made Alice feel both incredibly grown-up and sad at the same time.

  “Alice!” Her mother called from the kitchen. “Alice, we’re short of eggs; you need to run to the corner market if you want meringue.”

  Alice grinned. It was widely known in her house that meringue was supposed to be intended for pie only, but Alice had always insisted it was wasted on such a limited path. She had begged Aunt Polly to make a cake with the fluffy sugar topping. Mother and Aunt Polly had laughed and sent her outside, but this errand meant she had won. Her mother appeared at the door, a smile on her face, making her look years younger. She handed Alice a couple of dollar bills and a handful of quarters. “Get some milk too while you’re there. And hurry, and watch the cars.” She paused before closing the door and leaned over to land a kiss on Alice’s head. “Crazy girl, meringue on cake.” She shook her head as she re-entered the house, but she was still smiling. Alice smiled back even though Mum couldn’t see.